The perennial babbling of my daughter, the relentless onslaught of nagging from my significant other, the surge of estrogen charged egos and the daily impediments that come my way does take its toll…
Lately I’ve been having a hard time contemplating and meditating; the only peace I get during my waking hours is when I’m running or when I’m on my desktop with my headphones on with ear poppin’ sounds just to block out any noise… which is ironic. I just can’t hear myself think anymore, I guess this is just one of the challenges of becoming a parent.
I’m content with the direction I’m headed with regards to my personal life, it’s just the way I life it: simple and uneventful. Though I do want to do something different with regards to my career, assuming I have one. The money is decent and the wok is familiar but I don’t have that drive and passion in what I’m currently doing anymore. I want to do something that is engaging, challenging and maybe earn a bit while I’m at it.
I’m starting to envy some of my peers and acquaintances who even though don’t earn much with wat they’re into but they are driven and passionate about it. There are just some things that can’t be quantified by monetary standards. Somewhere along the way to earning and saving up for my daughter’s future I lost something valuable; I lost my passion and forgot what it is I want to do. Everything since then has become all about monetary and materialistic oriented goals.
I think it’s time to start running hard again and begin to find the things I’ve lost before I loose them permanently.
P.S. 6:40pm: nothing beats a good run to clear your head!
